Okay, so my last post was a bit selfish and petty. I get that now. I hate what caused my attitude to change but I am glad it is changed.
Monday morning, I was really struggling. I broke down in tears a couple of times before I even left the house. Leaving Gabriel this time was harder than when I left after 6 weeks of maternity leave. I cried once I think on the way to work and when I got there, I just was not thrilled. I got everything out of my car and into my classroom in two trips and then sat there overwhelmed at all the stuff I had to do. We had a faculty meeting at 9:00 and by the time I got in and sat down, my phone was going off. It was a text message from a good friend who was wishing me a happy first day back. But then she asked if I had heard about April's husband. I'll admit it took me a second to figure out who she was talking about (I work with an April so at first I was confused) but I quickly figured it out and told her I had not. Then she delivered the horrible news that he had died early that morning in a car accident. I was floored. I had to excuse myself for a moment to call my husband and tell him and I ended up in tears again. This beautiful young lady with 2 children has suddenly lost her husband...not to mention she is still going through treatments for breast cancer. HOW IS THAT FAIR?!?
When I went home for lunch I just collapsed in Jason's arms and cried. There I was complaining about having my room and team switched at school...but how does that tiny inconvenience even come close to comparing to this tragedy? I'll tell you...it doesn't come close AT ALL! I was upset with myself for letting something so small get to me. So I immediately decided my attitude was going to change this year. I was going to CHOOSE to be positive and CHOOSE to be the best I could be no matter what might be thrown my way.
I cannot imagine the pain sweet April is experiencing right now but I told Jason that if it were me...I probably wouldn't want to hear anything anyone had to say. "I'll pray for you?" "Hold your head up?" "Stay strong in the Lord?" None of that is going to bring him back and all the "normal" things people say to other grieving people just seem so trite. I stood in the card section of Target searching for a sympathy card for her for a while and ended up leaving empty handed. None of the cards seemed right. Perhaps that's because none of them were. There is nothing I or any piece of folded card stock can say to make this situation any better. All I can do is pray for God's peace to fall around her and her beautiful kids. Will you pray for her too? Pray for healing in her body and now healing in her heart.
Jason told me that ever since the news on Monday I have been telling him that I love him even more. I didn't realize it but he noticed it and I guess I just want him to know. We are not promised tomorrow so make sure you let the people you love know it.
On a lighter note, my birthday is Friday and Jason and I decided to get away for the weekend to St. Augustine. So, Gabriel will be with my mom Friday and Saturday night. I know I'm going to miss him a lot but hubby and I really need this time together. I'm excited to get away for a relaxing weekend before the kids come back to school on Monday.
Right now, I'm exhausted and am going to bed. So good night.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Please Don't....
...tell me to basically just deal with it. Just because we all have stuff to deal with does not mean I don't have a right to be upset. Yes, I know that there are bigger things in life but to me right now, this is a big one. And I will sure as heck deal with it in any way I see fit. So if pouting and throwing myself a pity party complete with balloons, cake, and confetti is how I feel like dealing with it, then let me be. I will eventually work through it as I do with all things so if you have a problem with how I manage things that upset me, then don't pay attention.
Whew! Sorry. Had to get that off my chest. I'm going back to work tomorrow. And let me tell you...I am overjoyed......NOT! I got to school Thursday in hopes of putting some of my room together and then I was told I was switched to not just another room, but another team entirely. Moving rooms is not the issue here as I really have nothing much to move since I brought it all home with me. But, I am being taken from the team I know and the team I am comfortable with and have a good relationship and foundation with and being put on another team. Now, if you are not a teacher, this might not make any sense to you or sound like a huge issue but it is a really big deal to me. I still consider myself a new teacher (even though this is my 3rd year) because there is still so much I have yet to learn and I feel like the team I've been on has helped me grow professionally. And while I may not enjoy every aspect of my job, those ladies on my team definitely made the rough moments smoother and the hard times easier and the confusing issues clearer. And now I am being ripped from them (dramatic, yes, but I am feeling dramatic tonight) and I am just really upset about it. I'll eventually get over it but when a colleague of mine feels the need to tell me to just put my big girl panties on and deal with it because we all have to deal with stuff...it just really burns my biscuits. Thus, the rant at the beginning.
Anyway, that's my soapbox for this evening...and now I'm stepping off of it. Gotta get ready for bed. The end.
Whew! Sorry. Had to get that off my chest. I'm going back to work tomorrow. And let me tell you...I am overjoyed......NOT! I got to school Thursday in hopes of putting some of my room together and then I was told I was switched to not just another room, but another team entirely. Moving rooms is not the issue here as I really have nothing much to move since I brought it all home with me. But, I am being taken from the team I know and the team I am comfortable with and have a good relationship and foundation with and being put on another team. Now, if you are not a teacher, this might not make any sense to you or sound like a huge issue but it is a really big deal to me. I still consider myself a new teacher (even though this is my 3rd year) because there is still so much I have yet to learn and I feel like the team I've been on has helped me grow professionally. And while I may not enjoy every aspect of my job, those ladies on my team definitely made the rough moments smoother and the hard times easier and the confusing issues clearer. And now I am being ripped from them (dramatic, yes, but I am feeling dramatic tonight) and I am just really upset about it. I'll eventually get over it but when a colleague of mine feels the need to tell me to just put my big girl panties on and deal with it because we all have to deal with stuff...it just really burns my biscuits. Thus, the rant at the beginning.
Anyway, that's my soapbox for this evening...and now I'm stepping off of it. Gotta get ready for bed. The end.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Less than a week...
I have less than a week (5 days to be exact) before I have to go back to work. And that means leaving Gabriel all over again. I have thoroughly enjoyed this summer, although I didn't get nearly the stuff done that I wanted to get done. But, in the last 8 weeks, he has grown so much and learned so much. And I have been there for all of it. Now, I have to go back to work and I just really hope I don't miss anything new.
Here is a list of milestones that we have encountered this summer:
-Starting solids
-First vacation
-Moving to stage 3 diapers
-Crawling (though still perfecting)
-Sitting up alone
-Pulling up in crib to standing position (now does effortlessly)
-Eating puffs
-Eating mum mums by himself
-Sleeping 9-11 hours a night (WooHoo!)
He is growing so fast I can hardly stand it.
I am really not looking forward to this school year...which sucks. I managed to psyche myself up last year but that has not happened yet. I just plain don't want to start. How horrible is that! I wish I could say I love my job...but I don't. I adore the people I work with. I have amazing pod mates and amazing co-workers in my department but the actual job itself leaves something to be desired. I found another open position at the middle school I want to teach at so I've applied and am praying for favor again. I truly want God's will though. I've prayed that if it is His will, then I will get it with no problem and be great at it but if it's not and He wants me to stay at the Hill then I will do so and work as hard as I can to be the best I can. I know this year will be an even more challenging one at the Hill and we have our work cut out for us but if He wants me there, then I will do it as unto Him.
This weekend is my niece's (the one living with us) 1st birthday party. I cannot believe she is going to be ONE already. It feels like just last week that I held her in my arms and bragged to everyone I knew about my beautiful niece. I was one proud Auntie. Now my sweet lil Mileena is going to be one. Her mama and I worked today to get some more stuff done for her Candyland themed party and my hubby made the castle out of cardboard. It looks pretty cool! I've been planning Gabe's party too. I've got the invitation done, the food decided on, the invitation list complete (I think), and part of the centerpieces bought that I plan to do.
Well, we have a Language Arts planning meeting tomorrow from 9-2 so I need to get ready for bed and get some good rest. Good night!
Here is a list of milestones that we have encountered this summer:
-Starting solids
-First vacation
-Moving to stage 3 diapers
-Crawling (though still perfecting)
-Sitting up alone
-Pulling up in crib to standing position (now does effortlessly)
-Eating puffs
-Eating mum mums by himself
-Sleeping 9-11 hours a night (WooHoo!)
He is growing so fast I can hardly stand it.
I am really not looking forward to this school year...which sucks. I managed to psyche myself up last year but that has not happened yet. I just plain don't want to start. How horrible is that! I wish I could say I love my job...but I don't. I adore the people I work with. I have amazing pod mates and amazing co-workers in my department but the actual job itself leaves something to be desired. I found another open position at the middle school I want to teach at so I've applied and am praying for favor again. I truly want God's will though. I've prayed that if it is His will, then I will get it with no problem and be great at it but if it's not and He wants me to stay at the Hill then I will do so and work as hard as I can to be the best I can. I know this year will be an even more challenging one at the Hill and we have our work cut out for us but if He wants me there, then I will do it as unto Him.
This weekend is my niece's (the one living with us) 1st birthday party. I cannot believe she is going to be ONE already. It feels like just last week that I held her in my arms and bragged to everyone I knew about my beautiful niece. I was one proud Auntie. Now my sweet lil Mileena is going to be one. Her mama and I worked today to get some more stuff done for her Candyland themed party and my hubby made the castle out of cardboard. It looks pretty cool! I've been planning Gabe's party too. I've got the invitation done, the food decided on, the invitation list complete (I think), and part of the centerpieces bought that I plan to do.
Well, we have a Language Arts planning meeting tomorrow from 9-2 so I need to get ready for bed and get some good rest. Good night!
Sunday, July 31, 2011
My Sweet Precious Boy
Gabriel Kayden:
You are 6 months and 11 days old today. I can hardly believe it. Mommy is already planning your 1st birthday party...even though I know you won't remember it.
You are drinking 4 bottles of 7-8 oz. each day and eating 3 meals a day of solids. Perhaps you should be drinking more formula but you have been struggling with constipation lately and trying to feed you the bottle has been a chore, although I enjoy feeding you solids and seeing your face when you figure out what it is your eating and get excited. You like almost everything you've tried which includes: sweet potatoes, green beans, squash, carrots, sweet peas, applesauce, bananas, peaches, pears, mixed veggies, among others. You just recently tried puffs courtesy of your Auntie Charity and you enjoy those too...though I'm trying not to spoil you with those too much.
You flirt with the ladies everywhere we go: the grocery store, restaurants, and especially church. The ladies in the nursery absolutely love you. You just flash that precious toothless grin of yours showing off your dimples. You are sleeping wonderfully these days. You usually go down around 7:30 and sleep until 6 or after. Thankfully, your 'Tay Tay' was around many weekends to give mama some extra sleep when you did not sleep so well.
Except for the last few weeks which we now believe were due to constipation, you are a happy boy. You love bath time, soft blankets, your jumperoo, your new johnny jump up, your stuffed train, your giraffe that sings the ABC's and your monkey blankie. You are starting to crawl. You don't have it down perfectly yet but you sure do get around. We have to constantly watch you though because you like to leap forward and have whacked your head more than once giving mommy a slight heart attack. I always watch you carefully after that to watch for any signs of concussion...call me paranoid. But I only get worried when it actually makes you cry...which isn't as often now.
Keeping you still to change your diaper is like trying to battle a champion wrestler. Mommy and daddy have to lower your crib, something we will probably try to tackle tomorrow because you are just about to pull up to a standing position. I don't doubt in the next few weeks you will. You already pull up on your knees and peer through the bars like you're in jail. It's adorable...and terrifying at the same time. Why are you growing so fast?
I have been so blessed to have the summer off to spend with you but I only have a few more weeks left and then your daddy becomes Mr. Mom again :) I love watching you and daddy play. He was the first one to make you laugh and is still the one that makes you laugh the most. You are becoming quite a chatter box which I adore. I love to listen to your little voice while your pacifier is in your mouth...it is the cutest thing. You love to try and get to Cheyanne, our boxer. You don't mind the kisses but we really don't want her kissing you on the face so she gets scolded a lot...poor dog. I just know when you start walking, you will be terrorizing her enough:)
I absolutely adore you and even though there have been some exhausting and frustrating moments in the last few weeks, that sweet smile makes it all worth it. Daddy and I pray over you every night when we put you down and it has been such a sweet time for us. We consistently pray for the day of your salvation, praying that you will one day have a saving relationship with our Lord. Our prayer is to raise you up in a loving Christian home where we practice what we preach.
Your mommy and daddy love you something fierce and we could not ask for more....
You are 6 months and 11 days old today. I can hardly believe it. Mommy is already planning your 1st birthday party...even though I know you won't remember it.
You are drinking 4 bottles of 7-8 oz. each day and eating 3 meals a day of solids. Perhaps you should be drinking more formula but you have been struggling with constipation lately and trying to feed you the bottle has been a chore, although I enjoy feeding you solids and seeing your face when you figure out what it is your eating and get excited. You like almost everything you've tried which includes: sweet potatoes, green beans, squash, carrots, sweet peas, applesauce, bananas, peaches, pears, mixed veggies, among others. You just recently tried puffs courtesy of your Auntie Charity and you enjoy those too...though I'm trying not to spoil you with those too much.
You flirt with the ladies everywhere we go: the grocery store, restaurants, and especially church. The ladies in the nursery absolutely love you. You just flash that precious toothless grin of yours showing off your dimples. You are sleeping wonderfully these days. You usually go down around 7:30 and sleep until 6 or after. Thankfully, your 'Tay Tay' was around many weekends to give mama some extra sleep when you did not sleep so well.
Except for the last few weeks which we now believe were due to constipation, you are a happy boy. You love bath time, soft blankets, your jumperoo, your new johnny jump up, your stuffed train, your giraffe that sings the ABC's and your monkey blankie. You are starting to crawl. You don't have it down perfectly yet but you sure do get around. We have to constantly watch you though because you like to leap forward and have whacked your head more than once giving mommy a slight heart attack. I always watch you carefully after that to watch for any signs of concussion...call me paranoid. But I only get worried when it actually makes you cry...which isn't as often now.
Keeping you still to change your diaper is like trying to battle a champion wrestler. Mommy and daddy have to lower your crib, something we will probably try to tackle tomorrow because you are just about to pull up to a standing position. I don't doubt in the next few weeks you will. You already pull up on your knees and peer through the bars like you're in jail. It's adorable...and terrifying at the same time. Why are you growing so fast?
I have been so blessed to have the summer off to spend with you but I only have a few more weeks left and then your daddy becomes Mr. Mom again :) I love watching you and daddy play. He was the first one to make you laugh and is still the one that makes you laugh the most. You are becoming quite a chatter box which I adore. I love to listen to your little voice while your pacifier is in your mouth...it is the cutest thing. You love to try and get to Cheyanne, our boxer. You don't mind the kisses but we really don't want her kissing you on the face so she gets scolded a lot...poor dog. I just know when you start walking, you will be terrorizing her enough:)
I absolutely adore you and even though there have been some exhausting and frustrating moments in the last few weeks, that sweet smile makes it all worth it. Daddy and I pray over you every night when we put you down and it has been such a sweet time for us. We consistently pray for the day of your salvation, praying that you will one day have a saving relationship with our Lord. Our prayer is to raise you up in a loving Christian home where we practice what we preach.
Your mommy and daddy love you something fierce and we could not ask for more....
Friday, July 29, 2011
Light at the end of the tunnel?
For the last few days, we have been dealing with an extremely irritable baby boy. For the past 2 weeks, feeding him his bottles has been a pain in the rump. But, we combined some advice together and today was the best day (feeding and mood wise) we've had in a while.
Gabriel had his 6 month check up on Monday and was healthy as a horse. He was 18 lbs and 27 in long. He had no ear infections (which I really thought he did). The doctor just said he was a really independent boy. Oh joy, we thought. Are we seriously going to be dealing with this until he learns how to actually hold his bottle? And what was with the constant hummy style fuss? She just said it was teething and we should try baby ibuprofen. Soooo, we got the ibuprofen and I purchased a Playtex Ventaire bottle that has the curve in it. The following day, he did better with the bottle and has done better with the bottle since then although then he started to do this whole fuss, eat, pull away from the bottle, fuss, eat, pull away from the bottle. He was no longer trying to hold it, he was just plain fighting it. Great! Now what? He was fussy most of yesterday and by last night, I was utterly exhausted. After I put him down for the night, I just went into the bedroom and cried. I didn't know what to do! Where was my happy boy? I'm supposed to be enjoying this stage and I just wasn't.
Jason and I both got on the computer last night and searched. I finally came across a forum where a lady went through the same exact thing with her daughter at the same age. She said someone suggested that she up her daughter's solid meals from 2 a day to 3 a day and when she did that, her daughter was happy as a clam. Sooo, we decided to try that today. He got his first 8 oz bottle this morning around 6:15, then breakfast of oatmeal mixed with fruit around 8:00. He had another bottle at 10:00, lunch of mixed fruit at noon, a bottle at 2:00, dinner of mixed vegetables at 5:30, and then one last bottle before bed at 7:00. He didn't fight hardly at all and the only time he fussed was around 3:00 when I was trying to get him to take his nap. It has been a much more peaceful day. He's been happy and has played to his heart's content. Is it possible he was just hungry for more solids? So now, we'll see how tomorrow goes :)
On a lighter note, Gabriel got his first doses of the beach last weekend and Tuesday. He wasn't a fan on Friday, but loved the pool on Saturday. We went to Treasure Island both days because Jason's aunt got his mom a 2 night stay on the beach and Jason's older sister and niece and great niece were there. Yes, my 27 year old husband has a great niece. His niece Samantha is older than he is but I LOVED her. She is such an awesome person and such a faithful woman of God. And her 4 year old daughter Abby is a doll! On Tuesday, we went to Daytona (the opposite coast) where my mom was staying. He didn't mind the beach as much and actually played in the sand until he tried to eat a handful. Then we decided to take him back to the pool side. Mom and Faye took him in the pool while we got to take a nice walk on the shore hand in hand.
Gabe has been sleeping like a champ the last few nights (9-11 hours a night). I hope he keeps it up. He's getting earlier bed times now so hubby and I can spend some time together.
Sunday night I got to see my Charity from Canada and her daughter Naomi. Naomi pretty much wanted to attack Gabe which was pretty hilarious. They played in the kiddie pool together, sorta. Gabe is actually bigger than her even though she is 4 months older. Weird...
Jason's brother Danny and his wife Aeoli are coming over tomorrow so I have to finish getting the house cleaned up before they get here. I will be cleaning like a maniac tomorrow and then we'll be having smoked sausage, shrimp, and pepper skewers over a bed of rice and Jason made a butterscotch cheesecake...yummo!! We might even do s'mores with a fire if it's not too too hot or raining tomorrow night for Jason to start one.
Guess I better get going. Maybe I can get some more cleaning done before going to bed tonight.
Peace!
Gabriel had his 6 month check up on Monday and was healthy as a horse. He was 18 lbs and 27 in long. He had no ear infections (which I really thought he did). The doctor just said he was a really independent boy. Oh joy, we thought. Are we seriously going to be dealing with this until he learns how to actually hold his bottle? And what was with the constant hummy style fuss? She just said it was teething and we should try baby ibuprofen. Soooo, we got the ibuprofen and I purchased a Playtex Ventaire bottle that has the curve in it. The following day, he did better with the bottle and has done better with the bottle since then although then he started to do this whole fuss, eat, pull away from the bottle, fuss, eat, pull away from the bottle. He was no longer trying to hold it, he was just plain fighting it. Great! Now what? He was fussy most of yesterday and by last night, I was utterly exhausted. After I put him down for the night, I just went into the bedroom and cried. I didn't know what to do! Where was my happy boy? I'm supposed to be enjoying this stage and I just wasn't.
Jason and I both got on the computer last night and searched. I finally came across a forum where a lady went through the same exact thing with her daughter at the same age. She said someone suggested that she up her daughter's solid meals from 2 a day to 3 a day and when she did that, her daughter was happy as a clam. Sooo, we decided to try that today. He got his first 8 oz bottle this morning around 6:15, then breakfast of oatmeal mixed with fruit around 8:00. He had another bottle at 10:00, lunch of mixed fruit at noon, a bottle at 2:00, dinner of mixed vegetables at 5:30, and then one last bottle before bed at 7:00. He didn't fight hardly at all and the only time he fussed was around 3:00 when I was trying to get him to take his nap. It has been a much more peaceful day. He's been happy and has played to his heart's content. Is it possible he was just hungry for more solids? So now, we'll see how tomorrow goes :)
On a lighter note, Gabriel got his first doses of the beach last weekend and Tuesday. He wasn't a fan on Friday, but loved the pool on Saturday. We went to Treasure Island both days because Jason's aunt got his mom a 2 night stay on the beach and Jason's older sister and niece and great niece were there. Yes, my 27 year old husband has a great niece. His niece Samantha is older than he is but I LOVED her. She is such an awesome person and such a faithful woman of God. And her 4 year old daughter Abby is a doll! On Tuesday, we went to Daytona (the opposite coast) where my mom was staying. He didn't mind the beach as much and actually played in the sand until he tried to eat a handful. Then we decided to take him back to the pool side. Mom and Faye took him in the pool while we got to take a nice walk on the shore hand in hand.
Gabe has been sleeping like a champ the last few nights (9-11 hours a night). I hope he keeps it up. He's getting earlier bed times now so hubby and I can spend some time together.
Sunday night I got to see my Charity from Canada and her daughter Naomi. Naomi pretty much wanted to attack Gabe which was pretty hilarious. They played in the kiddie pool together, sorta. Gabe is actually bigger than her even though she is 4 months older. Weird...
Jason's brother Danny and his wife Aeoli are coming over tomorrow so I have to finish getting the house cleaned up before they get here. I will be cleaning like a maniac tomorrow and then we'll be having smoked sausage, shrimp, and pepper skewers over a bed of rice and Jason made a butterscotch cheesecake...yummo!! We might even do s'mores with a fire if it's not too too hot or raining tomorrow night for Jason to start one.
Guess I better get going. Maybe I can get some more cleaning done before going to bed tonight.
Peace!
Friday, July 22, 2011
Just the Honest Truth...
Sometimes, being a mom is not all fun and precious moments. Sometimes, it's downright frustrating. Don't get me wrong. I absolutely love that little wiggly jiggly monkey of mine and would not trade him for all the riches in this life. But sometimes, that sweet adorable son of mine, pushes those buttons.
At this point, with that boy at 6 months old, I would do anything to figure out how to give him a bottle and have him not fight me on it. I think he is so crazy about solids now that he just either doesn't care about the bottle anymore or the one he has isn't working for him. I honestly do not know. I don't know what to do. And THAT, is the worst part. I feel as his mother I should know all the answers...and I don't. How am I supposed to fix it when I don't know what the real problem is. Anyone out there feel me on this?
I love him more than life itself but this stage, as exciting as it is and has been and will continue to be, is wearing me thin. I'm already used to the exhaustion. That I can handle. Being a mother is just exhausting. And I am okay with that. It's worth that smile, that giggle, that way he looks at me with those big blue eyes that say he knows exactly who I am and he loves me.
Why is he fighting me feeding him the bottle? Why is he making that hummy fussy noise that I've never heard before? Why is he happy one minute and fussy the next? Sometimes I wish I could just quit him on the bottle and feed him solids from now on because that is what he likes...but I know he needs the nutrition the formula gives him...and so I fight, sometimes for an hour, just to give him his 7 oz that he has, up to this point, guzzled down without a problem.
We're taking him to the beach today for the first time so I'm hoping he loves it and does well and that he sleeps well tonight afterward. I love when he discovers new things and I guess that makes these times worth every bit.
But now I must take my tired self and pack his beach bag. Praying for a good trip...and an answer to this growing issue. Six month well check on Monday so hopefully the doctor can shed light on this frustrating occurrence. Later gators...
At this point, with that boy at 6 months old, I would do anything to figure out how to give him a bottle and have him not fight me on it. I think he is so crazy about solids now that he just either doesn't care about the bottle anymore or the one he has isn't working for him. I honestly do not know. I don't know what to do. And THAT, is the worst part. I feel as his mother I should know all the answers...and I don't. How am I supposed to fix it when I don't know what the real problem is. Anyone out there feel me on this?
I love him more than life itself but this stage, as exciting as it is and has been and will continue to be, is wearing me thin. I'm already used to the exhaustion. That I can handle. Being a mother is just exhausting. And I am okay with that. It's worth that smile, that giggle, that way he looks at me with those big blue eyes that say he knows exactly who I am and he loves me.
Why is he fighting me feeding him the bottle? Why is he making that hummy fussy noise that I've never heard before? Why is he happy one minute and fussy the next? Sometimes I wish I could just quit him on the bottle and feed him solids from now on because that is what he likes...but I know he needs the nutrition the formula gives him...and so I fight, sometimes for an hour, just to give him his 7 oz that he has, up to this point, guzzled down without a problem.
We're taking him to the beach today for the first time so I'm hoping he loves it and does well and that he sleeps well tonight afterward. I love when he discovers new things and I guess that makes these times worth every bit.
But now I must take my tired self and pack his beach bag. Praying for a good trip...and an answer to this growing issue. Six month well check on Monday so hopefully the doctor can shed light on this frustrating occurrence. Later gators...
Monday, July 11, 2011
Caution: Long Blog Ahead
It has been way too long since my last blog update...
This has become my release in a way and unfortunately, life has been so crazy busy lately, that I have barely had time to actually sit and relax it seems. There are so many things going on in our lives right now that it's actually hard to keep it all straight. However, God remains faithful as always and even through the tough times, He is always there.
Since my last post, so much has happened.
My husband and I have really been trying to figure out ways that he might be able to start his own business but we thought it might have to go on hold for the summer since he went to working full time again. Well, his boss finally made him lose it. He didn't actually lose it in front of his boss but he was just an idiot enough to make my hubby quit. It's really been a long time coming since he worked like a dog for the man, did the job of 5 men, and got paid almost nothing. I had a complete peace about it (he did talk to me about it before officially quitting). I told him I didn't want him to go back. I wanted him to take this opportunity to focus on his custom woodwork. He is so talented it's disgusting :) So we got to work right away...posting fliers, giving out business cards, and researching ways to begin an actual small business. It's in the works and while anything brand new is scary, I find it exciting. Our neighbor across the street also has (according to him) many home repair/remodel jobs that he's going to give to Jason since he's getting up there in age and just can't do it anymore. Our next step to the whole business aspect is to get his business tax license and create an LLC. I'd also like to help him write up a business plan but unfortunately, I didn't pay enough attention in my business class in college and can't remember how to write one for the life of me...anyone want that job? :)
He's been making his wooden crosses and I swear everywhere we go, I get a compliment on the one that I wear. If you'd like to purchase a wooden cross necklace made my him, let me know. He's got several designs, sizes, etc. and if you have a certain design idea, he could probably make it for you. He makes other things too and will be working on creating an inventory soon. We're hoping we can get into the Downtown Lakeland Curb Market in September to sell some items.
Today, he got hired for a job where he will be doing some repair/remodel things in a house and bringing home more money in one week than he would in a month working for his old boss. Praise the Lord...especially since my check was short this month...again. But, we trust in God and He is ever faithful.
Lately, for me, I've just not been myself. I've had some issues that I didn't even realize until I actually started talking them out with my mom. The one that hit me the most was that I don't feel like I have any friends here. Sure, I have acquaintances and people I call "friend" but I'm talking about that friend that you can tell anything to...that friend that you can be serious or stupid with...that friend that will sit and do nothing with you or go crazy doing something with you. And it really got to me. I miss that girl time. Sometimes I wish I was rich and had the money to fly to Canada every month to spend time with the one person I feel has really been THAT friend to me in the last few years...and still is when she comes for a visit. But it's hard not to have that here.
I'm also not really all that happy with my job but cannot bring myself to leave. I love the people I work with too much. But...this year is going to be even tougher and maybe I'm a masochist but I still can't leave. Drives me nuts....
There were other things going on that I'm not going to address here but things are much better now and I am feeling a lot better about things.
Gabe slept awesome last night and I'm hoping for the same tonight. He is getting so big...he's eating like a champ and still trying to crawl. I'm buying a jumperoo from a lady on craigslist tomorrow so that he can go crazy in that...he keeps trying to jump in his exersaucer and unfortunately, that is just not meant for jumping:) We went on our first vacation to Alabama to visit with my grandparents, Gabe's other set of great-grandparents. He did awesome on the long car trip and even though he had his first cold up there, he was generally a happy boy. He loved interacting with great grandpa and freaking great grandma out by just staring at her. Now that was hilarious.
I am eating healthy, walking every morning with Gabe, hubs, and our boxer, and I joined Planet Fitness (starting tomorrow). My skin has cleared up, my energy is higher, and I just feel better overall. Thankfully, it seems that God has taken away my cravings for things I once ate way too much of: pizza, ice cream, cookies, soda, etc. I just plain don't want those things now. If it's offered to me, I say no immediately. I don't even give myself the chance to think about it. I don't focus anymore on the number on the scale but rather the small victories that come along with starting a new healthy lifestyle. I feel really good about it.
We've headed into month 2 of the in laws living with us and things are going pretty well. Of course there are things that get on my nerves as you would expect with family living with you but we get past it and through it and ultimately have fun together. Today, my s-i-l and I painted a cardboard gingerbread man that Jason drew and cut out for Mileena's 1st birthday party. It's a candyland theme and we're also going to have a cardboard castle which we can hopefully get to tomorrow.
Earlier this morning, Gabe got to spend some time with his cousin Preston who is a mere 5 days older. They were cute together. We're hopefully going to have a Sister-in-Law night this week if we can make it happen. I think it would be good for us to get together just the 3 of us...we haven't done that before.
Well, I do believe this has been long enough. If you've stuck with me, thanks. I appreciate your perseverance. It is time for me to go spend some time with the hubs. Ciao!
This has become my release in a way and unfortunately, life has been so crazy busy lately, that I have barely had time to actually sit and relax it seems. There are so many things going on in our lives right now that it's actually hard to keep it all straight. However, God remains faithful as always and even through the tough times, He is always there.
Since my last post, so much has happened.
My husband and I have really been trying to figure out ways that he might be able to start his own business but we thought it might have to go on hold for the summer since he went to working full time again. Well, his boss finally made him lose it. He didn't actually lose it in front of his boss but he was just an idiot enough to make my hubby quit. It's really been a long time coming since he worked like a dog for the man, did the job of 5 men, and got paid almost nothing. I had a complete peace about it (he did talk to me about it before officially quitting). I told him I didn't want him to go back. I wanted him to take this opportunity to focus on his custom woodwork. He is so talented it's disgusting :) So we got to work right away...posting fliers, giving out business cards, and researching ways to begin an actual small business. It's in the works and while anything brand new is scary, I find it exciting. Our neighbor across the street also has (according to him) many home repair/remodel jobs that he's going to give to Jason since he's getting up there in age and just can't do it anymore. Our next step to the whole business aspect is to get his business tax license and create an LLC. I'd also like to help him write up a business plan but unfortunately, I didn't pay enough attention in my business class in college and can't remember how to write one for the life of me...anyone want that job? :)
He's been making his wooden crosses and I swear everywhere we go, I get a compliment on the one that I wear. If you'd like to purchase a wooden cross necklace made my him, let me know. He's got several designs, sizes, etc. and if you have a certain design idea, he could probably make it for you. He makes other things too and will be working on creating an inventory soon. We're hoping we can get into the Downtown Lakeland Curb Market in September to sell some items.
Today, he got hired for a job where he will be doing some repair/remodel things in a house and bringing home more money in one week than he would in a month working for his old boss. Praise the Lord...especially since my check was short this month...again. But, we trust in God and He is ever faithful.
Lately, for me, I've just not been myself. I've had some issues that I didn't even realize until I actually started talking them out with my mom. The one that hit me the most was that I don't feel like I have any friends here. Sure, I have acquaintances and people I call "friend" but I'm talking about that friend that you can tell anything to...that friend that you can be serious or stupid with...that friend that will sit and do nothing with you or go crazy doing something with you. And it really got to me. I miss that girl time. Sometimes I wish I was rich and had the money to fly to Canada every month to spend time with the one person I feel has really been THAT friend to me in the last few years...and still is when she comes for a visit. But it's hard not to have that here.
I'm also not really all that happy with my job but cannot bring myself to leave. I love the people I work with too much. But...this year is going to be even tougher and maybe I'm a masochist but I still can't leave. Drives me nuts....
There were other things going on that I'm not going to address here but things are much better now and I am feeling a lot better about things.
Gabe slept awesome last night and I'm hoping for the same tonight. He is getting so big...he's eating like a champ and still trying to crawl. I'm buying a jumperoo from a lady on craigslist tomorrow so that he can go crazy in that...he keeps trying to jump in his exersaucer and unfortunately, that is just not meant for jumping:) We went on our first vacation to Alabama to visit with my grandparents, Gabe's other set of great-grandparents. He did awesome on the long car trip and even though he had his first cold up there, he was generally a happy boy. He loved interacting with great grandpa and freaking great grandma out by just staring at her. Now that was hilarious.
I am eating healthy, walking every morning with Gabe, hubs, and our boxer, and I joined Planet Fitness (starting tomorrow). My skin has cleared up, my energy is higher, and I just feel better overall. Thankfully, it seems that God has taken away my cravings for things I once ate way too much of: pizza, ice cream, cookies, soda, etc. I just plain don't want those things now. If it's offered to me, I say no immediately. I don't even give myself the chance to think about it. I don't focus anymore on the number on the scale but rather the small victories that come along with starting a new healthy lifestyle. I feel really good about it.
We've headed into month 2 of the in laws living with us and things are going pretty well. Of course there are things that get on my nerves as you would expect with family living with you but we get past it and through it and ultimately have fun together. Today, my s-i-l and I painted a cardboard gingerbread man that Jason drew and cut out for Mileena's 1st birthday party. It's a candyland theme and we're also going to have a cardboard castle which we can hopefully get to tomorrow.
Earlier this morning, Gabe got to spend some time with his cousin Preston who is a mere 5 days older. They were cute together. We're hopefully going to have a Sister-in-Law night this week if we can make it happen. I think it would be good for us to get together just the 3 of us...we haven't done that before.
Well, I do believe this has been long enough. If you've stuck with me, thanks. I appreciate your perseverance. It is time for me to go spend some time with the hubs. Ciao!
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